Chapter 5?

I will not cry. Over the same thing again. Never. I will never let someone say I am not worth being together with. I don't want to be with someone that will only look for me when help is needed. Liar will stay a liar. Jerk always stay a jerk. I hurt so much there's nothing anyone can do. Oh there's a thing. You can laugh. And I can die. You'll forever won't realize how much I've done, because you only saw yourself. You'll forever won't listen and understand me, because all you did was listen to reply. With harshest words. I did not regret. At the end, I know what kind of a guy are you. You only did those nice things because you wanted to show me you can do much more than him. You just want to prove me you're better. You never get serious and cared for me when I was hurting. You only get serious when you're hurt. And I was a weak to listen to you when so many times you never listen carefully to me. I was a fool to believe you loved me. I was a fool. I was fooled. Too many times. Yes I left this time. But you've left me long ago. And goodbye for real.

i, as in imaginary

efforts? oh how i wish i would experience it for real once for my life time. the heart? it was broken to pieces nowhere near the so-called second chance. promises? i doubt every letters from it. trust? made me weak and pierced every time i heard someone said it. hopes? too fragile i wont even give it a second glimpse. i love you? no.

i won't.