Chapter 5?

I will not cry. Over the same thing again. Never. I will never let someone say I am not worth being together with. I don't want to be with someone that will only look for me when help is needed. Liar will stay a liar. Jerk always stay a jerk. I hurt so much there's nothing anyone can do. Oh there's a thing. You can laugh. And I can die. You'll forever won't realize how much I've done, because you only saw yourself. You'll forever won't listen and understand me, because all you did was listen to reply. With harshest words. I did not regret. At the end, I know what kind of a guy are you. You only did those nice things because you wanted to show me you can do much more than him. You just want to prove me you're better. You never get serious and cared for me when I was hurting. You only get serious when you're hurt. And I was a weak to listen to you when so many times you never listen carefully to me. I was a fool to believe you loved me. I was a fool. I was fooled. Too many times. Yes I left this time. But you've left me long ago. And goodbye for real.

i, as in imaginary

efforts? oh how i wish i would experience it for real once for my life time. the heart? it was broken to pieces nowhere near the so-called second chance. promises? i doubt every letters from it. trust? made me weak and pierced every time i heard someone said it. hopes? too fragile i wont even give it a second glimpse. i love you? no.

i won't.

BOO!

BEW.

Helloooooo

Hi welcome budak2 first year. Huhu teringat waktu aku dulu. Btw aku dah cakap ngan diri aku yang aku taknak wish kedatangan diorang tapi dah alang2 tulis blog, wish jelahhhhhh. Okay sebelum apa2, bagi yang newb tu, aku study UPM ye. Hehe.

Okay back to story, takde la story sangat pun, aku ada gak la pasang niat nak sambung master. Cuma lately aku berbelah bagi. Lagipun aku nak duit je skang. Lulz. Im on my road to graduation yay!! Semoga aku berubah lah tahun2 last ni. Insyaallah amin.

(perasan tak penulisan aku tak berubah dari form 4 sampailah dah tua bangka ni, spt kanak2!)

Ada aku kesah? Haha. Anyroadsss, tak sabar nak habis study ni. Tinggal lagi 2 semester, dan kemudian aku praktikal. Semoga aku kuat ya Allah. Nadia boleh! Ayuh la takkan nak cemerlang waktu sekolah je, kemon la. Baca post2 lama (zaman sekolah), ya Allah, boleh undur masa tak? Haha teringin nak ada semangat macam tu balik. Bapak semangat aku study

And cakap pasal master. Hmmm entah la entahh. Mungkin la aku akan sambung BILA aku dah habis bayar ptptn nanti. Taknak dekat upm yg memberi aku kenangan pahit ofcoz. AND itupun maybe aku buat part time je kot. Tak tau la noksss. Nak habiskan degree cepat2, nak bawa diri jauh2, nak kerja, and nak anak. Boleh tak? Nak bagi mama ayah cucu je. Menantu2 ni takyah la. Adopt baby je leh tak. Zaman dah moden yilek lah. Hm ok nadia dah. Study tu.

Sebenarnya kan aku macam dah berubah sikit la dari zaman sekolah dulu macam dulu aku tak fikirkan pasal orang sangat (skrg pn same je), tapi macam dulu wa jomblo hapi. Sekarang sendu lebih. Pengajaran eh kat situ. Kalau ada yang terbaca ni, ambillah pengajaran;

Jangan bagi segalanya yang awak ada selagi awak takde pertalian rasmi dengan seseorang tu. Awak percaya macam mana pun, percaya lah, orang baik sekalipun boleh berubah hati. Menyesal dahulu pendapatan, menyesal kemudian tiada gunanya. Jangan terlampau percaya sesiapa kecuali diri sendiri. Huhu sesungguhnya dunia yang fana ni kejam

Okeh berbalik dari topik tadi (takde topik pun), mama suh aku guna duit aku beli kenderaan sendiri aka kereta. Hm ma pls la duit tu i nak buat majlis kahwin yg grand hm taknak lah dicemuh orang kampung dan taknaklah berhutang waktu kawen ken ken. Kalau tak dapat pun, nak guna untuk beli rumah untuk baby2 i. I nak bela kuceng, mmm benda2 comel lagi la tak decide lagi. Pastu nanti boleh buat walk in heheheh 2 in 1 yo disamping menemani diriku, duit pun masyuk. Okey itu semua hanyalah sebahagian daripada angan2

Btw kenapa ramai orang perangai dia macam acah2 eh? Mcm cantik je mcm comel je. Mcm nk buat aku suka kt dia mcm sabar, aku takkan suka kau pun sbb aku bukan gay haha. N kalau kau rasa kau boleh jaga aku mmg silap besarrr ah. Sumpah haha

Mm ok la brb nak jd cantik kaya baik hati japs~